re-reading times
I decided yesterday that I wanted to re-read Sex God bye Rob Bell. I find it really interesting, because the whole thing is about how our sexuality and our spirituality are connected. I’ve read half of it already - Rob doesn’t write the hardest books in the world to read - but it’s been really interesting and I think what I’ve been reflecting on the most is that usually the way that our sexuality or relationality is expressed in seeking connection, reveals something deeper about our connection to God. So when I have insecurities in my relationships, it’s not just about me relating to that other person, it’s also about me relating to God. And when I try to show myself that I’m awesome by comparing myself with people who are less awesome, it’s because I’m re-shifting where my identity is coming from.
It’s not even that novel of an idea, but it’s really resonating with me right now. As I’ve had this sort of spiritual renewal over the past few days, I think it is helping me process all the things I’ve done to try to replace God in my life and inevitably why those things will never work.
Here’s a quote I wrote down from it as I was reading yesterday that seemed really insightful to me.
Whatever it is that has its hooks in you, you will never be free from it until you find something you want more. It’s not about getting rid of desire. It’s about giving ourselves to bigger and better and more powerful desires.
What are you channeling your energies into?
Because they will go somewhere.
If they don’t go into a few, select, disciplined pursuits that you are passionate about and are willing to give your life to, then they’ll dissipate into all sorts of urges and cravings that won’t even begin to bring the joy that the “one thing” could.
hmm… food for thought.
